Monday, September 8, 2008

Holy Frickin Crap!

Ok so I'm a little in shock. My daughters are starting preschool tomorrow! And yes I know we're just starting them off at 2 days a week but it's still a big deal to me.

Is it just me or is time flying by? I guess that's part of being an adult... we get so busy with our lives we don't even notice the years going by. Not that I'm complaining :)

I just remember when the girls were born and it still feels like it wasn't that long ago. And yet, it has been. They're four and a half now. They're little people now. It's weird to me. I think I understand parents better now. I think I know now why my own mom still worries about all of us and still hopes we make good decisions for ourselves. Being a parent doesn't ever end. It's this infinite thing. I know now that I'm going to look at my kids in 2o, 30, and 40 years and think to myself, "it wasn't that long ago..."

What in the hell did we get ourselves into? It's the best and worst thing in the world. Isn't it amazing that WE are responsible for sending functional and worthy human beings out into the world? Us? I wonder if all people think this way? I wonder if everyone worries about this stuff? Does worrying about it make us better parents? To be perfectly honest, I feel like I'm already failing them somehow. I already have regrets about things I could or should have done better. Damn, I'm turning into my mother lol!

4 comments:

Nuthin' But Net said...

You seriously need to smoke less dope...

Your reflective side is super gay.

Princess Candace said...

Bite me you flaming homo...

Deadmeat said...

All parents fail their children in some way. We just have to make sure that we do our best not to fail them in the ways we know about. Between my parents and yours, we've already got a pretty long list going of all the things not to do wrong. If we stick with that, I'm sure they're going to end up better off than we were.

No, all people do not think this way. Those are the parents that are completely unstressed by parenthood. They weren't given any tools growing up and therefore don't know what they're missing. In OC, you can usually recognize these people as driving lifted F350 pick up trucks with 'remove for river' trailer hitch covers.

Regrets? Hell, we're going to fuck up something. The biggest challenge until they get into school is literally to keep them alive and healthy without any obvious emotional ticks. Other than a craving for attention (which could be from being Jewish, slightly spoiled, or simply the children of two very talkative parents), I think they're great kids.

They're alive, they're happy, and they have fun with us. I think we're a step ahead of a lot of people and on par with many of our peers that you consider to be reallly good parents.

Nuthin' But Net said...

This blog is gay.